I just did something I have not done in ages! I ordered several anime related stuff. Mostly D.Gray-man and Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn. A Kanda towel, a coffe mug with Kanda, Allen and Lavi on it, a Yamamoto clear file among others. There were no Tyki Mikki things nor Zoro from One Piece but I sure hope there will be soon!
For a year now I have spent all my money on my bjds. It felt really good to buy something for me to decorate this apartment with. ^^
Once again I surprised myself by the emotional reaction I had when finding the Kanda towel. I sighed his name out loud and felt that tingling feeling in my eyes which I always feel when I am about to cry.
I don't think about D.Gray-man daily, but every once and again something reminds me of it and I often find myself crying because of it. It is the same weird reaction I have when thinking about Juuni Kokki. Why is that? They are not tears of anger or sorrow but there is this yearning feeling which I cannot place.
As I sit here now listening to anime music that I have accumulated over the years I realize how much I have felt and experienced from simply sitting in front of my computer.
If the purpose for living is to experience contrast and give birth to new ideas and wishes... I believe I found the best way to do so from when I was just a small child. I was not past my fifth birthday when I started watching anime.
There are really things happening inside of me right now. Memories being restored and feelings sorted out. Like a defragmentation of my mind. It is easy for me to recognize what is important to me, what means most to me.
Only a couple of weeks ago I could not stand being alone. I wanted company all the time. Now I am not bothered by my solitude at all.
I feel rich because I have so many colourful ideas, memories and fantasies inside of me.
For a year now I have spent all my money on my bjds. It felt really good to buy something for me to decorate this apartment with. ^^
Once again I surprised myself by the emotional reaction I had when finding the Kanda towel. I sighed his name out loud and felt that tingling feeling in my eyes which I always feel when I am about to cry.
I don't think about D.Gray-man daily, but every once and again something reminds me of it and I often find myself crying because of it. It is the same weird reaction I have when thinking about Juuni Kokki. Why is that? They are not tears of anger or sorrow but there is this yearning feeling which I cannot place.
As I sit here now listening to anime music that I have accumulated over the years I realize how much I have felt and experienced from simply sitting in front of my computer.
If the purpose for living is to experience contrast and give birth to new ideas and wishes... I believe I found the best way to do so from when I was just a small child. I was not past my fifth birthday when I started watching anime.
There are really things happening inside of me right now. Memories being restored and feelings sorted out. Like a defragmentation of my mind. It is easy for me to recognize what is important to me, what means most to me.
Only a couple of weeks ago I could not stand being alone. I wanted company all the time. Now I am not bothered by my solitude at all.
I feel rich because I have so many colourful ideas, memories and fantasies inside of me.
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